[If she lets herself stop to think about it too long it won't end well. Banter like this is something that doesn't always come easy. In the past its taken hours, days, or even weeks of getting to know someone enough to build that sort of trust and rapport. And every time that she's allowed herself to start to open up to them, they've been ripped out of her life by powers beyond her control.
She had this with Naruto once. She really liked him, too, but just when it felt like the two of them were on the same page he was sent back home, or at least taken away from Ourana. Maybe he's out there somewhere on one of these other worlds, or maybe he's back home where he belongs, with no memory of her.
Next was Cloud, and she'd taken it a lot slower with him. By then she knew that monogamy wasn't really in the cards when serving the Twelve, and Cloud had scars just like she did, but he had a lot more and his ran a lot deeper. They had something special too, but they never put a name to it. That was hard on her in the end, especially when he disappeared too. She hadn't known before, but after arriving here and realizing he was here with no memories of Ourana, well...
And then of course there was Eugene. She... couldn't think about him without feeling crushed under the weight of her guilt. There was still a possibility that he was alive, and that was what she had to believe to keep going, but just knowing that he'd been put in danger because of her was almost enough to send her spiraling headlong into regret and remorse. She'd been lucky enough to have a friend to pull her back from the brink of that. That was a dilemma she'd have to tackle when she got back home. Until then, she had to keep moving forward. If there was any chance she could take anything she'd gained or learned back with her, then she owed it to herself and to Eugene and everyone waiting for her to do her best in the here and now, right?
So now here she is again, with someone new, in someplace new, experiencing feelings that weren't really all that new, but felt brand new.
They're both scared for different reasons, but they're also both still hopeful enough to try, and that's what matters.]
I guess it does. [She quips back, but more than just playful her tone is pleased and warm.] So when do you want to go?
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She had this with Naruto once. She really liked him, too, but just when it felt like the two of them were on the same page he was sent back home, or at least taken away from Ourana. Maybe he's out there somewhere on one of these other worlds, or maybe he's back home where he belongs, with no memory of her.
Next was Cloud, and she'd taken it a lot slower with him. By then she knew that monogamy wasn't really in the cards when serving the Twelve, and Cloud had scars just like she did, but he had a lot more and his ran a lot deeper. They had something special too, but they never put a name to it. That was hard on her in the end, especially when he disappeared too. She hadn't known before, but after arriving here and realizing he was here with no memories of Ourana, well...
And then of course there was Eugene. She... couldn't think about him without feeling crushed under the weight of her guilt. There was still a possibility that he was alive, and that was what she had to believe to keep going, but just knowing that he'd been put in danger because of her was almost enough to send her spiraling headlong into regret and remorse. She'd been lucky enough to have a friend to pull her back from the brink of that. That was a dilemma she'd have to tackle when she got back home. Until then, she had to keep moving forward. If there was any chance she could take anything she'd gained or learned back with her, then she owed it to herself and to Eugene and everyone waiting for her to do her best in the here and now, right?
So now here she is again, with someone new, in someplace new, experiencing feelings that weren't really all that new, but felt brand new.
They're both scared for different reasons, but they're also both still hopeful enough to try, and that's what matters.]
I guess it does. [She quips back, but more than just playful her tone is pleased and warm.] So when do you want to go?